One of my wish, maybe it will happend but you have to know it

I want to be the mother of your kids, will you be the father of mines? I wanna be the one, who you will search for every day, you will search and when you find her hand hold it for the rest of your life, and as time goes by two hands holds our missing hand, I wanna be the part of you heart that makes it shine everyday, I want you to make me fall in love for you when every day began, But if you want it too, please don't leave me, show it to me, make me feel that what I'm feeling right now is real. Draw a smile in my face and it will be forever yours.

I wanna get older, to be with you, to live with you, to sleep with you and when every day begin, when I open my eyes see you next to me standing by my side. Want to see you every day, enjoy, pass our lives everyday, and fall in love every day. 

When time comes to us, see us in the mirror with our gray/white brighter hair in our heads, remembering the first day we met, our first dance, our firts kiss, our first all.

And when death take us by surprise just hold or hand, and see what a beautiful family we've done, and leave the kids a nice future. We will close our eyes, take our hand, hold our hearts and let our souls travle around the world thogether.

That's what I expect, would it be just in my dreams?

We are walking down in a difficult line.

Well, this is a story about a girl I know, or maybe not, maybe she is only in my dreams, but it's about a girl I think I know. She  lives in a fairy world, she is not mature yet, she is a girl, a little girl, but she can be the best of all, she is so humildity, she is so special, she is so pure, but she is so girl yet. She thinks That Hanna Montana sings great, she thinks Hanna Montana is the best, she believes that her dady is her hero, she is wrong, she is a girl, a daddy's little girl, but I can see trought her eyes, and I can see her soul, I can tell there's something worng coming, I feel it, I can hear her toughts, I'm jelaous of her live, cause it is so easy, so easy to tell, so easy to explain, I love her, but I'll let her go, she has to get out of my dreams, she is hurting me from the inside, she don't let me think right, she'll destroy my feelings, I hace to let her go, to anothers girl dreams

Our love... is not as others.

Well it is not so simply to start, not easy, but I would like to do it. Well you still don't know all, cause you are a boy and last you don't care at all, but you let me love you and that's nice, when you found someone who you can trust in, who will fix your heart not at all, but will try. When you say "i love you" our words collide, they crash and let us feel the magic in that. You are not like me, i'm not like you, but it does not matter, cause at last nobody is perfect and everybody is unique. I love you, yeah, you have my heart, i want you to be the owner, yeah take care, save it, in a box, and take it with you every moment, never forget me, just keep me in your memory i'll never let you feel alone. Please baby take care love is a drug when it stops you feel that you need it, I want ot forever these feel of needing you, of wanting you of waiting you of wishing you .... of having you. You better run, run, run away from all, but just with me, we can go where nobody can hurt us, nobody can regret us, where we feel complete in peace, where we can be holding each other forever and nothing changes and nothing separate u. I like here where we are now, cause this is where our lifes begin, remember our first date, our first kiss, our first dance, i won't forget it, it is in me, in my mind like a memory,  after all I still love you no matter what you do, when I said "yes" it was cause I was sure, for it, I take the risk, and I like it, cause I'm happier. We fight? o' course but it just because to know each other more, God want us together I bet, but, Would you be with me forever?... the anwear is not writen yet.


I promise I'll be with you until the end of the times no matter what, i could drive with you until the end of everything.

Coffe & Cigarrettes

Coffe and cigarrettes, maybe it will keep me alive, but not for a long time, cause you made a hole in me, and my coffee and cigarrettes always have been there with me, maybe I was to young, and you so small, maybe we were not suppoussed to be together, but I tried to stay, you go away, i moved too, maybe i only have to stay, maybe you only have to say "I love you" and I'd stay,

Now is so late, the damage is done, I can't clean it, the kind of dirty, that you can't see, the one you can not take out of the clothes. I love you, and that's just what I don't want, Stay with me, I'll be listening, share form you, and we can make it better. Nothing can crash better than two different stars. I'll walk with you until the end of the days, trought bullets and pin, My security, does not matter, yours neither. We just have to hold each other tight, and hole our hand, and of course our hearts and maybe we will be together. I lost you and found you and the chances are always, so please don't hurt me, fix my heart. My words does not have sense. I'm in a maze, but in a mystery Maze, but Im with you hand my hand, we are in the dark, I only hear your heart beating close to mine. I'll thanks God ot be alive and share this with you. I'll try to be with you all the time, you should do this, but It means .."change" I want to be the one who you really are, the one who loves me just for what I am... an unperfect girl. With a weak heart. With regrets every day...  maybe each day I'm more alone, just to be more with you. Come right now, Just think me and keep me in your mind, don't reset me and when you feeling empty keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest (a perfect song) Daze maze, Whatt is this plaze? I hear voices over my shoulder, next to me, down me, above me. And yes, you are :)

That Day.

How do you feel, when someone you love so much needed you, and you failed?

But how does she/he feels, that you where not for her/him?

Don't know what's worst, I'll probably lived with that, I have to face it, but thats not easy cause I don't know,

I've never been perfect, but neither you, I needed you and you wheren't there for me. I really want to let you go than break my heart slowly, I want to let you go, and break my hart fast, that I can not feel the pain, or run away form you, leave you alone, maybe you'll be better, without a person like me, who always makes you feel that you are wrong, makes you notices all the wrong things, and make you feel so small, but if you share from you, probably it woud be easier. Maybe I love you so much, and maybe God wants us together for all the time, but I'll never know, until you make me feel it, see couples togehter, and you let me die alone, you never think in what's best, baby you have me, but if You don't share you will loose me, You told me that you are.. lost without me, and you made me believe that shit, but you told me "Baby, it has to been shown bye actions not words" but you have no acts even word. Make me feel so alone And I an not let you go .... I'll die unhappy. But what happend if I go, when I think I need you the most, I'll be happy? You'll be better? I'll be alone? Don't know, and it frustrates me, cause I don't know what I want cause I think I'm lost without you too. Maybe I'm so weak and I need you, or i'm a fool. Baby don't let it be burn, stay here and make it better it's not the first timw it happends, I'ts not the first time I forgive you. I'll love you until you show it to me.

When the sun comes down.

You will never know what darkness hides. I'll like to know, but maybe I'm not too strong to do that, maybe I'll won't me pacient, maybe it's not for me, but darkness is a mystery, since the point that it exists, I'll like to discover it... maybe too young to die, to fast too live.

One day, walking in the middle of the night, a men, tall men, asked me, what time it was, I told him, "Sorry, but I don't know", by the time I saw his face...his beautiful eyes My world comes down, I feel weak, just like if he stole my soul, I arrived home as fast as I can, but I don't felt complete, I was needing something, maybe water, maybe soda, maybe.... energy, maybe blood, the moon was almost full, I never tought, that just by seen it I'll be relaxed, maybe I was not thinking right, then I feel someone behind me. He was behind me, just taking my hand, and makin' me walking to him, I was to weak to say no, but I went with him, then I was needing...energy, just by seeing peoples eyes I'll be satisfaced, but I was not happy with it, I was nervous ansiousm Don't know, I was just scared maybe, He took my back and tell me something, maybe he talks french, maybe not, but I close my eyes, repeat what he said to me, and I understand, I was strong, and so in love with him, time passed bye and I was happy, but alone, I feel like I just loose my soul that night, I was in pain with my brain. But I saw him everynight, he makes me love him, nothing can tear us appart, but I was fine and sort of complete, caue he had my soul. As time passed I get older every day that I was not with him, then I realized that I need him, he enchanted me, he love me, and we were suppoused to be. Then I realize that I becomes ...a vampire. and my life was with him. <3

The Start

"Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple, sometimes good bye's the only way"

That's what the song says. I think everything, every single thing is so easy at the start, but there's a moment when we have to move on, and accept the change. Evrything is moving, in a right way or bad. But it does not matter, It will never gona end with your happines, maybe it will be har passing trought it, But at the end... I'm not saying you will find the rainbow, but you will find a better place to stay, cause rainbow... we will never know the mystery that is hidding behind the rainbow. And that's what I can say for today.  That's how I feel now, passing trought changes it's hard, difficult but I'm on... nothing gina change me, gonna find the happines and live forever.